Katarína Varsiková

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Love in Literature and…

 

This blog is mostly meant for fiction and literature lovers. The quotations and thoughts are of Rosa Montero, a Spanish writer and journalist. A special gratefulness to Raquel Ruiz, my teacher, who brings up  contemporary Spanish literature to me. And also to Veronika who pointed out the non-existence of the word mourning in the Slovak and the Czech language.

Rosa Montero has written a book that can be loosely translated as The Funny Idea of Never Seeing You Again. Mourning. The period after losing a close person. The transition to acceptance of the loss. There are languages that have a special word for this experience. El duelo in Spanish. In Slovak, one “wears sadness”. In traditional setting, it is shown to the world by wearing black. Do men wear black, too? Or is it only women?

A year that a human being needs to settle into the idea of never seeing the beloved face again; the well-known smile, smell, voice is gone. The book is neither sad nor pessimistic, on the contrary, it is invigorating, uplifting, tickling curiosity about people and their stories.

These are a few ideas that inspire me a lot. Reading the book is having a conversation with an intimate friend. So, I hope Rosa Monterro would give me permission to translate and share them.

Here they are:

“Creativity is an alchemist intention to transform suffering into beauty.

Art in general, and particularly literature, are strong weapons against Bad and Pain.

We need to narrate ourselves to live. Our memory is in fact imagined. A story we rewrite every day.

When I was younger, I wanted to raise myself as a writer and create a great book about the human condition. Now, I modestly aspire at the freedom… And it is not about raising myself, but the contrary, descending, going down to the bottom of my unconsciousness where I hopefully can hear a piece of the collective song. Because deep in me there are we all. Only in total liberty can one really dance, make love, and write well. And those are the most important activities. And therefore, if you are asking me: Are you completely free in the text you are writing? I respond: Well, not. But I am heading there.

Fictional characters are marionettes of the unconsciousness.

I think there is no good fiction that does not strive at universality, that does not try to understand what it means to be a human.

The more you are nearing the essential, the less you can put it in words.

The marrow of the books lies in the corners of words. In good novels, the important is in the eclipse, in the air that circulates between the characters, in little sentences. Therefore, I cannot say more about Pablo: his place is within the silence.”

 Finally, the last extract that brings up Carl Gustav Jung and the spirituality of being One:

“I have a raising sensation that there is a continuation of human mind. That, in fact, there is a collective consciousness uniting us, that we dance unison without knowing it. And the coincidences form a part of that dance, of that music, common song that we finally do not hear completely, because the wind brings us only isolated notes.”

 The official site of the author:

http://www.rosamontero.es/index.html

 

 

Compassion. Space. Safety. Trust. Gratitude. Autonomy. Breath.

Picture: Message by Jean Michel Folon. The statue is situated in Parc Bruxelles not far from the Metro Parc station. 

These are the key words that I have brought from the Yoga Therapy Network conference in Amsterdam. Packed with the content and the pure joy and the need of connection.

The trees along the canals are releasing their pale pinkish flowers; already dry, soft, they create an uneven carpet on the pavement. What trees are they I do not know, but they are a nice metaphor to the life cycles, the seasons´ coming-going, the acceptance and letting go so natural for the nature and so difficult for the human ego.

The old sages knew the ego so well thousands of years ago, their texts speak clearly… About the need to practice, to keep a constant dialogue, to re-connect all the layers so that the union is established. What is great about the yoga is its evolution and adaptability. These qualities make it a great tool. Not a unique tool, as there are as many roads as people, but a perfect one. The words of Sanskrit, such as dharma, karma find their equivalent in modern languages. It is perfectly possible to combine different therapies and medicines and yoga and create space for: Healing.

Amsterdam on a sunny day in May is buzzing with its energy: All that is not forbidden is permitted. And even more. For some visitors, it means testing the boundaries of the what bodies can take. I have been there. And it is great to observe the people who do not, who just go about their usual days. So much to choose from – we are spoilt. Nevertheless, the choice does not make life easier, that is for sure.

But once I choose well and wisely, I know it. Yoga has taught me that, too. Not that doubts disappear ever completely.

I am walking along the canal that is on the outer edge of the inner city, not so many tourists, more locals sipping an aperitif or walking home from another work day. Cats on window sills, dogs being taking out. Two girls are trying out a dance choreography at the edge of the water. Bare-feet. The presence is growing with conscious breathing, the awareness of the body bringing me to those key words:

Compassion. Space. Safety. Trust. Gratitude. Autonomy. Breath.

Link to The Network Yoga Therapy:

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Priestor. Bezpečie. Dôvera. Vďaka. Autonómia. Dych….

V názve sú kľúčové slová, ktoré si odnášam z amsterdamskej konferencie o joge a terapii tento rok. Deň plný obsahu, radosti a prepojenia.

Stromy pri kanáloch zhadzujú svetloružové, drobné suché kvety, ktoré na chodníku vytvárajú nepravidelný koberec. Neviem, čo sú to za stromy, ale tvoria fajn metaforu životných cyklov, striedajúcich sa sezón, prijatia a púšťanie. Také prirodzené pre stromy a také ťažké pre naše ego. Mudrci to vedeli už pred tisícmi rokov a ich texty hovoria o potrebe… mať disciplínu.

Na joge je úžasná jej schopnosť rozvíjať sa a prispôsobovať. Tieto vlastnosti z nej robia dokonalý nástroj. Nie jediný, lebo ciest je toľko, koľko ľudí, ale dokonalý. Slová v sankrite ako dharma a karma majú svoj ekvivalent v moderných jazykoch a v súčasných reáliách. Terapie a jogu možno kombinovať a vytvoriť tým priestor pre: Hojenie.

Amesterdam je v slnečný májový deň plný svojej špecifickej energie: Čo nie je zakázané, je dovolené. A viac. Pre niektorých turistov to znamená otestovať hranice, koľko telo znesie. Poznám. A je úžasné pozorovať ľudí, ktorí to nerobia, žijú si svoj bežný deň. Možností je toľko!

No fakt, že si môžeme vyberať, nerobí život o nič jednoduchším.

Ak si však zvolím dobre a múdro, viem o tom. Joga ma naučila. Hoci pochybnosti nikdy nezmiznú navždy.

Kráčam popri kanáli na vonkajšom okraji mesta, nie je tu toľko turistov, miestni popíjajú aperitív alebo sú na ceste domov z práce. Mačky sa vyhrievajú na parapete, psy dostanú svoju zvyčajnú prechádzku. Dve bosé dievčatá si na kraji vody skúšajú tanečnú choreografiu. Prítomnosť narastá s každým vedomým dychom. Vnímanie.

Earth. Water. Fire. Air. Space

Picture: Lula connected to the Earth and Fire in the garden of our cottage in Western Slovakia

The elements are parts of nature, therefore parts of us. We connect to them and have all kinds of special relationships with each one.

Thanks to the practice, I can spot the imbalance or prevalence of an element in my body quite easily. Reaching for a second cake, though my stomach does not need it at all, unable to cut off procrastination and get down to work… It is the dominance of the earth with its force to attach, to lock me in passivity. Having a day of several superficial conversations, hopping from place to place, being active but not really getting anything done… the vata, the wind takes the leadership. Coming home after a long summer day on a beach, driving on a swelteringly hot highway, the fire is just way too much.  I seek shade, semidarkness, a cold yoghurt for supper. A stretch of Brussels´ cold and rainy days can make me long for a dry, hot day at our cottage in the mountains of Slovakia. I picture myself sitting on the warm stone of the terrace, watching the orchard absorbing the heat, plums growing in front of my eyes. And I know that water is the essential one for me. I can deeply long for rain. I jump with joy when the first drops fall on town and the air tastes like metal  – it is the water meeting the dryness.

The elements are in a constant flux, in a playful motion. And yoga can provide connection with all of them.

Root yourself in the mountain pose, feel your feet firmly touching the ground and the nourishing earthy energy entering into the body.

Do a sequence of deep launches and feel the flow, the fluidity representing the power of water.

In a triangle pose it is the lower body that provides firm grounding so that the upper body can move deep into the asana. The linking element here is the centre, the core, the home to our fire. The principle of transformation.

Throw a warrior pose on a meadow or a mountain, ground yourself deeply and offer the upper body to the air and space, these are the lighter energies that invite us to grow, to expand and to explore, to evolve.

Gratitude is the ingredience changing the practice into a spiritual experience.

Gratitude for being whole and being the part of the Game of Elements.

Pick up your favorite one in this moment…

Namasté.

Kniha radosti. Život v radosti.

Kniha radosti. The Book of Joy. Jeho svätosť Dalai Lama a arcibiskup Desmond Tutu spolu s Douglasom Abramsom.

„Našu budúcnosť nepredurčuje nejaký temný osud, ale my.“

Dalai Lama a Desmond Tutu hovoria o radosti za často neradostných okolností. Otvorená myseľ. Zahojená myseľ. Myseľ vyliečená z ilúzie izolácie. Sme tu na to, aby sme pochopili, že nie sme sami, vravia obaja. Radosť, súcit aj smútok zdieľame. V živote sa trápeniu nevyhneme. No naše osobné trápenie nie je prekážkou radostného bytia, práve naopak. Človek, tak veľmi vybavený na prežitie, zároveň túži po veľkorysosti, radosti a láske.

A tak dobre sa to číta, úsmev je tak veľmi blízko.

V Medickej záhrade kvitnú magnólie. Prechádzame sa so Samom. Delí sa o svoje prvé skúsenosti z práce na ministerstve.

„Nechápem, prečo obe moje kolegyne, analytičky, ľudia  automaticky považujú za sekretárky. Pritom sú šikovnejšie ako ja.“

Šikovnejšie, neviem, všetci sme šikovní v niečom. No ozaj, prečo?

Vojde pracovník, zbadá dievčinu, a okamžite mu napadne, že by mohla čosi prekopírovať alebo niekomu zavolať.

„Prepáčte, ja tu nie som sekretárka,“ ohradí sa dotyčná.

A dotyčný sa potom sťažuje na oddelení, že majú drzú a neochotnú… sekretárku.

Asi nám to potrvá, kým ako Dalai Lama a Desmond Tutu prekukneme ilúziu a dovidíme pod povrch. Moje svetlo hovorí s tvojím… a nie je problém niečo aj prekopírovať.

Máme rôzne vzťahy. Jeden milenecký, partnerský, kde sa napĺňa túžba po splynutí. Niekoľko úzkych priateľských, veľa kamarátskych, kolegiálnych. A potom tie komplikované, rodinné, kde moja bolesť je zároveň bolesťou všetkých ostatných. Radosť takisto.

Dalai Lama a Desmond Tutu hovoria o siedmich miliardách bratov a sestier, s ktorými zdieľajú… všetko. „Som presne ako oni, moja bolesť je ich bolesťou,“ vraví Dalai Lama. „Moja túžba po šťastí je rovnaká ako u každého človeka.“ A to zároveň oslobodzuje, lebo načo mať trému, pochybnosti, keď viem, že sme všetci jedna nekonečná bytosť túžiaca po láske?

A tak, ako povedala Nina na začiatku hodiny jogy, kamkoľvek sa pozriem, vidím vždy len seba.

Žeby sa tu niečo začínalo?

 

Ingenuidad. Naivná. Nevinná?

Slečna Ingenuidad inak zvaná Naivita. Je, či skôr bola, dlhoročná spoločníčka, verná a neviditeľná. Prečo? Chcela chrániť? Niečo učiť?

Vidieť v ľuďoch dobro, pestovať dôveru, umožňovať vzťahy. No rovnako pomáhala zabúdať…

Zabúdať na tiene u iných, zabúdať na svoje tiene. To ja som sa rozhodla ich nevidieť, z pohodlnosti, zo sebaobrany. Ingenuidad nie je nevinná, viem. Má svoju cenu, či lepšie povedané, prináša skúsenosť.

Raz sa neviditeľná Ingenuidad rozhodla ukázať v plnej kráse. Vo chvíli, keď som bola pripravená. Provokatívne sa usmiala a spýtala sa:

“Už ma vidíš?”

“Už ťa vidím. Môžeš zostať. Môžeš sa dokonca aj priblížiť. Teraz, keď ťa vidím, už nie si nebezpečná.”

“V tom prípade som Ingenuidad. Naivita, ale mám aj priezvisko.”

“A aké?”

“Nevinná.“

(K napísaniu textu ma inšpirovala Raquel, úžasná učiteľka španielčiny. Slovo Ingenuidad označuje úprimnú a dobromyseľnú osobu a jej konanie. V rímskom práve sa však používalo na označenie osoby, ktorá sa narodila ako slobodná, čiže nie v otroctve 🙂